Menopause Causes Sleep Deprivation

Menopause Causes Sleep Deprivation

Entry: Saturday May 1st | Menopause Brain Diary

It’s 5 a.m. I can’t sleep. This is the third day this week. Insomnia is the worst it’s been in a long time. I’m experiencing racing thoughts, an overactive bladder (like every 5 minutes overactive) and a lot of twitching (or spasms). I’ve also had chills the last two days. I usually find myself going between hot flashes and chills.

I’m feeling frustrated and hopeless.

When I don’t sleep I feel physically terrible. I’ll feel hungover all day, today. I hate that feeling. I hate that no sleep, now, means I’ll be useless all day. It cuts into my goals and plans for that day.

Yesterday, I felt mentally ‘checked out.’ I didn’t want to talk and I didn’t want to listen, either.

There’s no denying menopause has been a little hard on me this week. I think I’m not getting enough exercise. When I exercise regularly, I feel better. I sleep better. At this phase in life, sleep is so important to overall good health.

I’ve been binge watching shows. Reading and writing. I know what the sleep experts say. They say shut your phone off. But whoever said that has never experienced hormonal shifts or menopause. No doubt, the expert is a man.

When I have these menopause episodes I liken them to fevers . Eventually they’ll break and I feel good, again. But until then, I feel terrible.

I’m so tired I want to yell, scream, curse and punch the air. Instead, I’ll just wait it out. Plan to stay home all day. And get outside and do some exercise.

I hope tomorrow is better than today.

3 Things I Got With Menopause

3 Things I Got With Menopause

Menopause isn’t easy, sexy or fun. I don’t care how optimistic or Tony Robbins you think you are—-aging and the physical changes that occur in menopause, stings.

Here are three things I got with menopause:

Glasses, a night guard and grandma panties. The latter hurt.

You?

My Menopause Aha! Moment

My Menopause Aha! Moment

I was loading the dishwasher when I realized how bad I felt. I was sad. Sad like something bad happened. It reminded me of how I felt after the loss of my sister. It was in that moment I acknowledged the direct connection between my emotions and menopause.

Continue reading “My Menopause Aha! Moment”

Menopause Meltdown

Menopause Meltdown

Dear friends and menopause survivors, today I come to you in the midst of a menopause meltdown.

Menopause has been nothing but an uphill climb.

Two of the most challenging symptoms for me have been clumsiness, and memory failure.

As I write this I can’t find a credit card I had in my hand an hour ago.

I’ve turned the entire house upside down trying to find it. I’ve turned my purse and wallet inside out.

I’ve taken everything out of my freezer and refrigerator—-yes, I said the freezer and the refrigerator.

You’d be surprised how many things end up there these days.

Adding insult to injury is that I can’t even re-trace my steps because I don’t remember what I was doing when the card was in my hand.

I know I made tacos for lunch. I can only hope the card didn’t make it into the pan.

Maybe I got a phone call. Maybe I got a text message. Maybe I had to go to the bathroom. Maybe my brain just took a break at an inconvenient time.

But whatever the reason, I can’t find it. And all I feel is defeat, frustration and upset.

This happens a lot since menopause charged into my life like a bull in a china shop.

Some days I can’t remember where I parked my car. And I’m always on the hunt for something: my keys, my underwear or my glasses–usually on my face.

The glasses, that is. Not the underwear. If those end up on my head then menopause has completely taken over.

A good day for me is when I leave the house with two matching shoes on and my lipstick on my face where it’s supposed to be.

Most women in menopause tend to be aggressive towards their husbands during this time. Some don’t even like them anymore.

(We’ll talk more about menopause divorce in another article).

Thankfully, I don’t feel that way about my husband.

But…I am re-thinking my strategy on that because when I’m in the menopause tunnel (that’s what I call it), I don’t have the patience for a 110 questions on why I thought spaghetti seemed like a good idea for dinner.

Also, I don’t have the patience for any tone I don’t recognize or a certain kind of teasing, both of which my husband did wrong at Costco over the weekend.

I truly thought I was going to end up on the news for giving him a menopause smackdown.

Thankfully, all ended well.

I still can’t find my credit card and while I can laugh a little now that I’ve written this, I’m still so bummed, because I have a purse in my shopping cart that I really need to purchase today.

Okay that’s a wrap for now. If you’re still here thank you for listening to me.

If you’re a menopause survivor I’d really love to hear from you.

What are your symptoms? How are you coping? How has menopause impacted you on an emotional level?

Speak your #menopausetruth here!